Hotcakes and maple syrup.

i've tooked away all my older posts. i won't let these things hold me back anymore. its time i really did something for myself.

i miss those late night conversations with you online when i haven't got into army.
its taking my time away. all i can hope is to see you on friday, soon. you give me butterflies in my tummy. and the way u talk just makes me smile like an idiot to myself. you gave me a feeling i once lost. (: i know what i want. i miss you hotcakes!

i still prefer hotcakes anytime tho. (:

Good Guy Rant.

Well people, i'll be enlisting for national service in a few days time. but i just need to get this of my chest.

I just don't get it, and I'm honestly about to completely give up on relationships all together.But still, old memories leave scars, they stay, thoughts come and go. i'll never know.

here are my thoughts: This is probably going to fall into your stereotypical "nice guy" type of rant...i just need to. damn it.Why don't girls seem to want to be anything more then "just friends" with guys who treat them with respect, honesty and love? Every girl I meet seems to rather be with someone who's mean, vicious, abusive, or has some sort of issue that the majority of the world would consider "negative", and after breakups tell me, "oh. you're more like a sister to me", or " you treat me too well, i'm afraid i won't be good enough for you." that kind of bullshit.

I just don't get it. I know I'm not getting hit with the "just friends" hammer as a cover up for my looks. that dosen't matter cause i know im decent looking. What is it, then? No, I am not a clingy person.(it depends but i know my limits.) I'm an introvert who acts like an extrovert, so I am perfectly content being by myself for long stretches of time and giving her space.

Girls i used to be interested in always just end up being "good friends" and I'm sick and tired of it. I'm a person, too! Why do they always seem to run off to the disrespectful, mean and abusive guys, then come crying back to me to tell me how horrible they were treated? And then, what do you know, they go running right back out there and find another sleezeball. Wash, rinse, repeat.or rather a used piece of tissue paper. And no, I'm not a guy who tells a girl she's beautiful 10 times in a conversation. I make nice actions, i don't just blabber "your pretty, your amazing, I love you" blah blah blah.. I believe actions speak louder then words, so I SHOW kindness rather then just spout it off.

I'm just really fed up with the opposite sex in general ever since the fucking breakup long ago.ive spent the last two years being nothing but kind, compassionate, courteous, gentlemanly type of guy to every girl I meet, whether I want a relationship with her or not. Yet I STILL spend the weekends alone or hanging out with friends who are all paired off but me.

GAH! I'm sorry everyone, I just needed to release some steam. I'm just so frustrated with my situation currently that I don't know what to do. Or am i just thinking too much.

We are all taught growing up, "treat others how you would like to be treated". I treat everyone I meet with kindness, respect and with all honesty. yet they seem to never return the favor. And
it's not like i'm showing interest in some girls either. Or do i just not fucking play my cards well?And i also have a few good friends facing the same problem as well. The good guys are on rocky relationships, while the bad guys are doing all the shit and the girl still loves him. Is there no more justice in this fucking world we live in? we good guys need some motherfucking patience too. And i certain that there are people out there who agree with me.

somebody tell me whats the god damn problem?